Thursday, October 7, 2010

Nightmare on 35th Ave.....

Pregnancy often brings on VIVID dreams. I am no excpetion. Only mine aren't dreams, they are nightmares. I have about one every other night.

Last night's was the worst yet.

I dreamt that I was in present time, and Dman and I were separated (like as in we don't like eachother anymore separation). It was sad, I yearned for him. After about an hour or so (dream time) of dreaming about that, no storyline change, I started to spot. I called all the people I knew and asked if how much spotting was okay until I should go to the hospital. I wanted so bad to call Dman, but I didn't. Which made me sad.

Everyone told me it was fine, not to worry. But then my spotting got heavier and heavier. I was at my house upstairs in the bathroom and my parents were downstairs when all of a sudden I felt a rush. I reached down and a whole bunch of blood along with my baby came out.

I screamed. "Mom, call 911". I was in hesterics. I held her close to me telling her "you are okay baby girl", "I love you", "you are going to live". And then she slowly shut her eyes and died in my arms.

I woke up sobbing.

Isn't that horrible! What the what!?

These have got to stop.

3 comments:

  1. I don't think I had a specific dream as that, but I'll just say that it's normal, and you're not alone. I always dreamed that I would let people hold my baby, and they would drop him! All I can say is that you're totally not alone, and I think it's even better that you're letting your emotions out! It'll make it better instead of bottling up all your worries. Just know that your hormones are working overtime on your mind, and you're definitely not the first person to have "Scary Crazy Pregnant Dreams".

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  2. That's a bad dream!!! Hopefully they get better!

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  3. holy crap!! can anything positive happen in pregnancy (other than the baby growing)??? Geez!!

    Forgetfullness, nightmares, acne, constipation, feet growing, cankles, weight gain...sounds like a party!

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